So my mother and I are still not talking and now she's refusing to give us her car that she's been promising to us for months. Who knows what's she's going to do with it now.. she said she's doesn't want it and desperately wants it gone from her driveway so I'm guessing she's just going to chuck it.
I honestly thought she would be apologizing as soon as she could. I didn't think she's risk not being able to see Ascari anymore. I knew it would never be about me, as it never is and she even tells me this. She has always said to me that sometimes she gets scared that I wont let her see Ascari so she tried to not be nasty to be.. I guess she doesn't really care anymore now. I guess she doesn't care that she's going to miss Ascari's first birthday as well.
I'm not going to write on here everything that happened because it's too long but the main thing that's upset Daniel and myself for the last 9 months (that we have tried our hardest to ignore) is the fact that she has made it quite clear that she wishes Ascari was Rebecca's daughter.
Like I said, I've been trying for the past 9 months to ignore the rude things she says about Daniel (she thinks he's no good) and myself and how she is always talking about Rebecca (golden child) and my daughter and on the holiday I just snapped. It was over something stupid and small (she was calling me a jealous little child) but it made me snap.
And since I left we haven't talked at all.
Like I said, I thought she's be apologizing by now but she hasn't.
That's fine with me though because I am still so angry I probably wouldn't listen to her.
Daniel and I have talked about it quite a bit over the last week which has helped a little.
I think we're just going to cut her out of our lives for a while, if she does try to call that is.
I think she needs to realize that she cant do the things that she does. She needs to accept that Ascari is my daughter and I am a good mum. She needs to stop seeing me as her disappointment child.
Anyway in other news...
Daniel is getting his license on Wednesday but now that we don't have a car anymore we're going to have to start saving like crazy.
It's come at a particularly bad time, as Daniel hurt his knee when he fell and is unable to ride this bike to work anymore so he's having to catch a taxi.
So having a car would really help right now.
We talked to a lawyer the other day about suing Westfield.
It all depends on how damaged Daniel's knee is. He's getting a ultrasound on his knee and an x-ray on his back on Thursday.